Itachi-kun's Life

Exercise

2006-09-25T07:34:00.000-07:00

Ladies and gentlemen, I'm about to give you the secret to a long and stressfree life. The key is exercise. I've been exercising for my entire life until a few months ago and I was healthy, energetic, and by god decently stressfree. These past few months without exercise, however, have been hell. My sleep patterns are messed up, I'm stress out, and I'm losing my touch when sparring. I just can't go on without a regular program it seems. The problem is, I don't have the willpower to get up that early in the morning. As it stands right now, I'm not going to start that program until next semester. That being said, I'm more likely going to go insane from an abundance of stress in my life that I'm just recently noticing. I can only say that I really need find something to get me up in the morning that doesn't screw me up further than I already am.

Science

2006-09-15T18:28:00.000-07:00

When we hear science, most of us think of truth. Yet, science states quite explicitly that it only works off assumptions. It even gives the uncertainty priciple to fall back on. It gives everything it has with a dark lining of: "Well this is what happens....we think.....kind..." and expects us to trust it. The sad thing is, most people do. So what can we do? Question it and conduct our own little studies into science and the world. Why else should we give something like science funding for something that may have only worked because of certian variables we still don't understand or even know about. There are simply too many other things we could be doing instead of following the "science" of science.

Darkness lifted

2006-09-10T13:38:00.000-07:00

There's always that veil of darkness which dispairs those that see it. They say ignorance is bliss, but is it really? Can you go on thinking that that's all there is to the world? The veil is still there whether you acknowledge it or not. It'll always be there until you can learn to pass through. There lies the light which we are left to drown in. There's a point to life, I can prove it. It's hard to understand, but that veil is really only the beginning. We must go past where we are comfortable and find where we truly belong. How can anyone say they are content with where they are when they themselves don't know their eyes are averted. It's been given to us to see and pass through that waterfall to the place where we might find what we seek. We can finally be whole in the understanding of it all. We can finally learn what it is that drives us. We are given the choice and we are given the ability to complete this journey. Well, I'll go on and expose what I know. It's not a religion, it's just a way to think about how you live, how I live, and how we should live. I'll continue along this path not claiming peace or destruction or anything at all, except a hint of truth which we can climb and build upon. I'm not a cultist, I'm not a christian, I'm not a buhdist, or anything like that. I'm just me, I'm just showing what they do wrong and where they go astray. Yeah, I'll have some fun with this. I'll have some fun indeed.

Marrige

2006-09-08T13:40:00.000-07:00

Marrige. Such a strange word. A friend of mine is getting married soon. It's a very happy time for all of us. Not me though. I'm just trying to keep from crying my brains out. Trying to keep from sobbing enough to fill an ocean. It's not my choice who she marries, it's just my choice whether to live with it or not. I'll live with it and endure. Hell, what am I supposed to do otherwise, kill myself? Like hell I'm doing that, too much to live for. Just not enough to fill me completely I guess. I'll live with it. I'll endure this. I just don't want it on her mind that I don't want this for her, yet I do. I want her happy. I'm happy when she is, I'm also sad when she's happy because I can't make her happiness forever. I can't write her life into and out of what it already is. I guess this is why people become writers, so they can just live out on paper what they never could in reality. The looming feeling of ingorance and forgetting, only to remember something that never was. That is the point of writing. Well, is it really better to run from the truth? Is it just so much better to live in that facade they call a life?! No damn it, it isn't! Life is too be lived for a reason! There is meaning to the bad times that make you feel like your being torn up inside! That meaning is for us to live and show to others! Let not our fates be given to those that come after us. The hell with what happens to us now, we have the future. Knowing that we made a difference in someone else's life. Writers convolute their messege to generalize it, we won't. We'll just tell our stories the way they really are. I've made up my mind to change the future and the world, so that one day, she might tell me I did a good job. Here's to you. Here's to your future life. May you be happy together, so I might be happy for you.

The world as we know it

2006-06-26T15:01:00.000-07:00

The world as we know it is getting pretty pathetic. We try to answer questions that only give us more unhappiness and try to obtain knowledge that will only bring destruction. What are we going to do with the world in the state it'll be in 20 years from now? How the hell will we survive? There you go, more questions that only bring about a miserable mood.

Fear or hope

2006-05-24T09:30:00.000-07:00

I came across a paper done by a high schooler today. The topic is hope vs. fear as to power. Which is more powerful hope or fear. History tells us fear. Morons who run daycares tell us hope. Mindy Lu, age 17(I think, she might have gotten a year older. The article's from a while ago), thinks fear is more powerful. Her paper,(which I take no credit for by any means, I only wish to spread it a bit)is as follows: Fear is a more powerful environment, emotion, and motivation than hope. Many significant world events have been borne of fear. Great empires have been built upon controlling its people through fear and warfare. Dictators use fear as a primary weapon, imprisoning and killing political prisoners, enforcing strict codes of conduct. Dictators use environments of fear to control people, to keep people from revolting. Terrorists create atmospheres of fear to accomplish political agendas and undermine political leaders, eventually causing the break down in their society.

Fear, as an emotion can trigger biological responses in humans and other animals that save lives. Hope is fleeting; Emily Dickinson called it “the thing with feathers that perches the soul.” Humans are said to be born with but two fears: that of falling and of loud noises. Hope cannot save lives; it may actually kill—the hope a chronically ill person may have may only put off treatment that could cure the person. Unlike hope, fear inspires action. Fear’s most important power is that it can improve society because fear is universal. Fear of a nuclear holocaust between the U.S. and Russia is what kept the world from becoming a massive mushroom cloud. Fear of disease and epidemics leads to action—typhoid fever was eradicated in the U.S, through the improvement of sanitation in the sprawling urban slums. Fear is innate, the instinct of survival, not of procrastination.

Fear motivates people every day. Whether abnormal fear hinders people from fulfilling their potential, or healthy fear protects people and motivates them to make prudent decisions, fear can be the motivation of ones lifetime (namely the fear of Hell). After one has a near-death-experience, one reevaluates their lives and changes it, calls their loved ones and tells them they are loved, pursues their neglected passions and talents. A close friend of mine’s entire outlook on life and his future changed after he was involved in a major accident that almost killed him. He realized—as people do in general after such events that maybe they were taking for granted someone or some aspect of their lives that they should truly cherish. Hope on the other hand, does the opposite; it breeds complacency, causing people to revel in wistfulness for the someday when things will be better. The novel Fight Club, by Chuck Palahniuk illustrates this point. Raymond Hessel, gas station cashier, is held by gunpoint and told, “…Go back to school. If you wake up tomorrow morning, you find a way to get back into school… I know who you are. I know where you live… In three months and then in six months, if you aren’t back in school on your way to being a veterinarian, you will be dead.” After the protagonist releases him, he tells him, “Raymond K. Hessel, your dinner is going to taste better than any meal you’ve ever eaten, and tomorrow will be the most beautiful day of your entire life”. Fear pushes people to overcome circumstances and truly live. Isn’t life more valuable to people after it is threatened, after they realize what it is worth? Fear can make people feel alive, improves lives, controls and liberates, and that is much more powerful than the loftiness of hope.

God is dead

2006-05-08T10:51:00.000-07:00

I came across an interesting article today on wiki titled "God is dead". Now, this by no means states that god is literally dead, only that his concept is. The idea of god is dea is that people are beginning to question their beliefs almost religiously. It means that humans are starting to question their morality and loosen the past's grip on our minds. Now here's the kicker, the theory is quite correct. I'm a prime example if only because I question everything habitually. Morality is getting relative and our beliefs are crumbling. We have no evidence for religion at all, save the accounts that we can not verify. Our sociiety is coming to a junction, it came to a junction. It was asked, what is right and wrong and gave the smartass answer. It gave the old shades of grey anmswer that we all hold so dear. We have nothing. Science has given us explainations that have only made things worse. Olden times were better off(The old cavemen, or Adam and Eve depending on what you believe) than us and died a good death that save them the pain of having to see the next generation screw things up even worse. There's a theory that technology will eventually advance to the point to which it will destroy humans. We are living proof that we are idiotic enough to kill ourselves. How does this pertain to the death of god? It lines me up for this, we advance because we can not understand. We have a natural curiosity and thirst that we can not question until we think we are god. It is this thirst that made us question god. We thought: "I want to know all and be able to do all." And we could not so we thought: "If I can't do all and know all, then there's nothing and no one that can." That is our close minded nature. Those people who claim to have an open mind are truly just those that think along these lines. Humans have a natural superioty complex that can only be descibe as sheer arrogance at it's highest levels. We turn to ourselves for answers we say we can not have because of too many variables. We turn only to that which we see and think can be right because it is also a human. Humans are no where near deity status. We can not comprehenmd anything. We can only have faith and that is why we must keep god alive. God is the only thing that we can place our faith in. We humans can not put faith into other humans because we are only humans. Think less and less about where you came from, and think more of the future and the now. History repeats itself. I frankly don't care if there was some higher being that created us, or if we are just a random mistake, I only care that we are here right now. I only care that we are going to wipe ourselves out at this rate. I frankly, just care too much.

Blogging made easy

2006-03-17T18:26:00.000-08:00

Boredom. Get yourself nice and bored and you'll post on that blog like there's no tommorow. Beware the blogs, they bring destruction of fun. That goes double for logs.

Run from life

2006-03-12T20:15:00.000-08:00

March 12, 2006. Bored out of my wits with only Smallvile to watch. Nothing really to say except for my recent intrest in Ai Yori Aoshi. Watched the first episode and waiting to finish downing the second, but good so far.

Yet another week without caffine...

2006-03-07T18:36:00.000-08:00

This week, I am punishimg myself and going without caffine....I just wonder it's effects.... So if I seem strange this week actually started last wednesday...sorry if I didn't tell you... it's cause I'm trying to take my steps to getting off an adiction....

I'm Officially Scared

2006-03-06T16:24:00.000-08:00

Why the hell is it that logs still reads this blog?! It's supposed to be dead in the water waiting for deletion....I'm just scared now. I have only one thing to say then: Why the hell is it that we're still in this world of blogging?!

what the hell

2006-03-01T16:52:00.000-08:00

Who the hell still reads this blog? I know logs did...maybe he still does, but other than that I'm just ranting and raving....anyways, sick today.

WTF is going on

2006-02-16T21:14:00.000-08:00

I'm just weirded out right now. I'm here, just in this great mood and feeling great, but it's been a sucky day over all.

Life is strange

2006-02-10T11:07:00.000-08:00

Life is very strange. You live, you die, you do everything in between and still have regrets. I'm gonna say that life is crap. i'm going start updating again, and my music site is switching to savefile for uploading problems with putfile.

Problems, nothing more than problems

2006-01-08T13:50:00.000-08:00

Got some problems that are gonna prohibit me from going on a-source as much. I'll update this blog every now and again, but not much a-source in my future.

Just bored

2006-01-01T15:40:00.000-08:00

Bored out of my wits on New Year's and I just finished watching Akira for the first time(awsome by the way). Anyways, Happy New Year to all.

Festivus Rules!

2005-12-27T21:24:00.000-08:00

Just finished my Festivus celebration (don't ask if you don't know). Very fun, lots of drinking, bitching, and fighting. Very fun and will be known as my second Festivus.

God damn it!

2005-12-19T18:22:00.000-08:00

I just got my 360. I'm putting it together and I find that it's impossible to play my favorite mech game Steel Battalion on it. I've got sell my xbox for something, and might have to sell the game.

Stress, stress, and more stress

2005-12-18T14:29:00.000-08:00

I'm officially stressed out to the max. My parents have finally decided to tell me about their financial situation and I can't help but think that I'm the cause. My cat has also split its foot open and we've got to schedule a vet appointment. My Xbox 360 finally came in, but can't get it cause my parents (The ones who actually have it under their names) won't go and get it. My grades are slipping and I've got to starting earning some money cause my parents are going to cut me off soon. All in all, a very stressful day that continues to make me wonder if that was really a sarcastic suicide threat in the second grade or just a premonition of the stress to come.

I'm barely alive

2005-12-17T10:06:00.000-08:00

Just bored out of my mind hoping to further my training. I'm probally gonna just ditch school and go with training the rest of my days.

I am so screwed

2005-12-13T15:05:00.000-08:00

I just found out that I didn't get a B on my trig test, meaning I didin't pass. I'm so screwed. Ah well, what can ya do. These things happen.

I'm Finished and Hammered

2005-12-12T13:49:00.000-08:00

I finished my trig final a bit earlier today. I'm brain-dead and a bit drink. That party was way too much fun to reject though. Cosplay, scotch, anime, and the good ol' favorite; "closet". (If you don't understand, you're way too young to be reading this.) Well, I'm just gonna ride out my buzz.

Cramming Sucks

2005-12-11T20:06:00.000-08:00

I've got that trig final in the morning and I'm cramming right now. Sucks cause I blew off the entire course and need at least an 83% to pass. I can do it I know, but I just need to cram. Sucks doublely cause I'm off caffine as well.

Life Without Caffine

2005-12-11T07:38:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to get clean of caffine starting last weekend. It's been a living hell. I've been on caffine for 6 years and the past 3 were high doses in short intervals. So I'm just here without my caffine going insane.
P.S.Updated my music page as well.

What do you do

2005-12-10T21:40:00.000-08:00

I'm bored out of my mind. I so miss True-sama right now. Wonder what haapened that was so bad. 1ce told me bout a conversation she and he had when she came back online for a bit and apperently the word "bitch" was not used once. (Don't ask if you don't know, to complicated to explain.) It's pretty bad if she's not using "bitch" when talking to 1ce.

When you're out of luck

2005-12-09T15:50:00.000-08:00

I just found out that my trig final is on monday and is comprehensive. I'm so screwed.

Trig sucks

2005-12-09T07:46:00.000-08:00

I just got up after my 10 hour nap. I've got my trig class in a bit and I hate the damn thing. I've been drilled on math since I don't know when, and they're making me do calc next semester. Oh well, at least no math for the rest of my life after that.

Starting out

2005-12-08T13:11:00.000-08:00

Itachi-kun here. I'm just exhausted from my life. Most of you guys know me from A-source, so here's my blog.